I have been such a horrible blogger as of late. I spent probably 90% of my time reading. It is all I ever want to do. I plan on spending most of August working on a concept I have for a story, and then diving into school at the end of the month... but until then, I plan mostly on getting through the next two months of work until I get to my "vacation" of August. I miss writing so much though. I'm back to the point where I'm starting stories in my head, trying to work out the right wording for first sentences and paragraphs, or figuring out characters and scenarios. I think my first step is going to be writing an outline, which is something I always scoffed at before, at least for short stories and essays, but feel that with a novel or full story it's needed, especially with something more fantastical. I never thought I would be the type to write a fantasy type novel, but about a year ago I got this great idea, and from there it's been growing more and more, and the book I'm reading now is inspiring it ever more. Once I get a more precise idea down on paper I will share it here, but until then, nothing is ironed out yet, and it will probably sound more cheesy than what is in my head.

I've been doing my best to keep busy with projects so I don't feel like such a slacker lately. While I work almost every day and what not, I feel like my intelligence is going to wither away if I don't use it. Which is why I try to always be doing something - crosswords, reading, sodoku, etc. I've always been scared of that saying that the brain is like any other muscle, and if you don't use it, you lose it. I remember being so smart in school - at least in most classes, and now, five years after high school, I feel like my brain is mush. I know that I'm still somewhat intelligent, but I'm afraid I've lost the ability to learn and comprehend and grow in my knowledge. I feel that I have such a hard time retaining the information I take in. For instance, I read book after book after book, but half of them I can't remember what they were really about beyond the normal plot line... same with movies. I know this is probably because I read a ton of books really quickly with no time in between and they all just mesh in together, but in all honesty, there are books I have read less than a year ago and I have no idea what they were about... and even reading reviews about them - I couldn't even remember it after someone else recalled it. It breaks my heart that because of this I will probably have to give up reading quite a bit when I go back to class, but hopefully my law classes will at least give me some interesting material. Plus I'm going to try to take some psychology classes in between. I feel that that's a useful skill to have no matter what career you have. From waitress to police officer to president to judge to secretary, it's always beneficial to understand human nature.

I am truly going to try to update this more often. I'm going to go scour about for a new layout now. The one up at the moment was supposed to be temporary and it's been up, without a new post, since Easter.


Updated: Reading List